So here’s the deal—I’m trying to date. Like, actually find someone who gets me. Not just someone who tolerates my kinks, not someone I have to pretend around—but a woman who wants to be my Domme. Who wants the power, the control… and yeah, who maybe wants to include other men from time to time.

Basically? I want to be someone’s submissive and her occasional cuck.

But instead? I keep meeting women who want me to be something I’m not. Sweet. Vanilla. “Man of the house” energy. The kind of guy who leads. And I can fake it for a bit—but eventually the wires short out, and I end up back in the same lonely loop, wondering what the hell I’m doing wrong.

I know what I want. I want to be controlled. I want to be used. I want to be claimed. And yeah—I want to serve a woman who might just smile sweetly at me while some other guy’s dick is deep inside her. That doesn’t make me broken. It makes me honest.

So now, I’m trying to do it differently. Be upfront. Say what I need, early. Use the right spaces. FetLife, Feeld, Reddit, kink events—hell, even talking to friends in the lifestyle.

I’m not gonna settle again. I’d rather be single and real than partnered and fake.

Somewhere out there, there’s a woman who wants to ruin me just right. And I’m going to find her.