Friday was just Ben and me all day, so I decided to structure it. I set a timer. He would get exactly thirty minutes to focus on whatever task he was working on. When the timer went off, he reported to me immediately. No hesitation. No delay.
Each round was intense. I put him through demanding physical positioning, control drills, and stimulation designed to push his limits. Sometimes I had him bend forward and hold still while I set the pace. Other times I leaned back and made him do the work, riding and maintaining rhythm under my direction. I changed angles, tempo, and commands constantly. The goal was to keep him highly aroused, highly focused, and completely under control.
When he reached that edge, I would stop. Full stop. Dismissed. Timer reset. Back to work.
It became a real workout for both of us. I stayed hydrated, rested between rounds, and treated it like athletic conditioning. He held up well at first. By the eighth round, I could see the cracks forming. His recovery during those thirty minute downtimes became harder. His body wanted release.
I pushed him through it. On one round, I made him work through visible fatigue, and he struggled to maintain responsiveness until I added sharper correction. That snapped him back into focus immediately. Within seconds he was fully engaged again, only to be stopped just as quickly. He even had a small involuntary response once, but held back a full release. That restraint impressed me.
By the eleventh round, it had to be the last. Cody and the kids would be home soon. I warned him he needed to hold off, but I drove him right to the brink. When he started begging, voice strained and desperate, I stopped again. I held him there, suspended, knowing exactly how primed he was.
Then I leaned close and told him he had earned it.
The shift from denial to permission was immediate and explosive. He lost himself completely. Afterward, he collapsed forward, spent and shaking.
I gave him a few corrective swats, more symbolic than severe, then stepped back and removed the gear. As I dressed, I calmly instructed him to clean himself up and change the bedding before my husband and children walked through the door.
Structure. Control. Reward. Discipline.
By the time my family came home, the house was spotless, dinner was underway, and Ben was back in full service mode.
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