I came to FemdomU at a very weird time in my life.
I’m not gonna go into too much detail because I don’t want to bore anyone, but I had just come out of a long relationship that just wasn’t any good. For either of us.
It was vanilla, and it had me numb a lot of the time. I wasn’t growing at all. You all know the kind of thing I’m talking about.
I felt like I had no community. I felt like all my friends were either moving forward without me, or gone. Which was weird, because I’ve always been so optimistic and boisterous. I didn’t recognize myself anymore.
That being said, even at my lowest, when I was just glazed over and bored with the life I had shackled myself to (and not in the fun way), I never stopped writing. I have a huge portfolio of novels, scripts, and poems that sadly, I’ve done very little with.
But I’m still hellbent on becoming Stephen King.
Femdom was a constant light in the darkness as well. This is the philosophy that I follow the most completely to this day. I believe in female supremacy with everything that I am. The world needs it right now.
After everything for me fell and shattered, and I began picking up the shards, I stumbled upon the doors of the magazine like a wayward drunk. Looking for cheap titillation, but staying and reading for a second…and then I ended up learning.
Then I felt a wild, intoxicating inspiration that I hadn’t felt for a long time.
I ended up sending my man Duckie an application, and some of my writing samples. After that, everything just fell into place in the best way possible.
I met the radiant Mizz Geena, who dug my writing enough to give out assignments, and work with me on bettering myself.
I met Zeek, who so graciously showed me more of the ropes and fixed my stupid mistakes.
I got to read Levi’s writing, which lit my face up in a crazy smile because he was so good, and I knew that if I stuck around I could read more.
I got swept up with modeling for the DomU games. I had never done anything like this before! But it was rad, and I had so much fun with it. I wanna do more!
It was like being in school again. You listened to your lovely teachers, you did the best you could, you got praise. I adored every challenge.
Each Domme I had the pleasure of conversing with has been an absolute joy. I could write forever on each of them, but it would be the length of a novel. Nobody got time for that.
Every sub I’ve shared words with has been nothing short of a comrade. The bond I feel with the fellas makes me smile all cocky. I feel like I share a locker room with you guys.
Maybe it’s me, but this feels like it’s been a long month. First one in a long time that has felt this way for me instead of short as hell.
So much has happened! All between me moving house, running my protest group, getting started with my volunteer work, and my beloved domme wanting to get a little closer…
There was me joining up with FemdomU.
The motor that kept me running. That feeling of community I was missing, and that outlet for creativity I so desperately desired.
I dunno. Again, maybe I’m screwy, but it feels like I’ve been at it for years, and it hasn’t even been a month.
Every week was a new writing assignment, and a new photoshoot. A new mountain to climb, and a new adventure to go on.
I’m not lying when I say I love you all. Both dommes and subs. The magazine herself. Life again.
I have encountered nothing but good people, good times, and the hottest publication I’ve ever had the honor of contributing to.
This has been one of the most illuminating ventures I’ve ever embarked on. And if you all allow me to continue, I absolutely will. With a smile.
I apologize profusely for the ramble, but I just feel really good right now. Good about the future, good about the magazine…good about my new family.
Thanks for taking a chance on this no-good punk with stars in his eyes, everyone. I love you all. I can’t wait to see what fun the next day will bring.
I can 100% relate to lots of this post. Even being a continent away from most on here, I feel close, part of it, I belong.
I’ve done things under task, under instructions I would have never have thought I’d be capable of doing.
I’d like to think I’m doing better every day, in one aspect or another and as you say it’s not just Mizz Geena I can owe thanks to, it is Duckie, Zeek, Levi, the other volunteers and we cannot forget the other Dommes here some of which could probably easily ask anything of me and my reply would simply be ‘Yes Miss’.
Lovely post BGL.
Thank you, 11.
I don’t feel a continent away from you, hermano. I come alive every time I see your awesome avatar in the comments.
Awesome post bud. The Dommes have really worked hard to build something different here, and it’s cool to hear from other guys that it works for them too. You absolutely fit in here and I know your contributions have been fantastic. I happen to know you’ve caught the eyes of more than one of the ladies!
Glad you’re here and I look forward to getting to know you more!
Oh, I absolutely agree, Z.
FemdomU is everything I’ve ever wanted to labor for. I love everything about it.
You helped build it up too, boss. I live for your computer wizardry.
love you man! and totally dig that photo too.
Same, D.
This was one of the dommes that I handyman’d for. She was an ABSOLUTE queen.
We’d ride around singing Billie Holiday tunes together. I adored being at her feet.
My boxer boy, you are very welcome here and appreciated. It does seem like you should have been serving us earlier, but in the short time you’ve been here, you’re showing your value, making a solid contribution, and as Zeek mentioned, catching the eyes of more than one of the Dommes. Keep it up.
Doesn’t it though, Mizz Geena?
I should have joined up with the publication AGES ago.
Even if I caught no one’s eye, I’d still be proud and willing to serve, boss.
Thank you for the privilege, diosa.
I love you too man! This is exactly how I felt my first two months. I just got out of a relationship and was going no where fast. Joining the magazine has sparked love for life in me again. I no longer see a dull gray when I’m looking at sunsets, food taste better and everyday I wake up with excitement for what the day might bring. FemdomU is the spice I’ve been missing for a long time and I’m glad I finally found it.
Nice piece BGL! You touch on things that have been on mind since I started here.
Thanks bro.
I see a kindred spirit in you, MLP.
I’m proud to serve beside you.
We need to talk about Stephen King…. 😉
I agree, Mrs. Annie.
Lotta passion in his words, a lot of conviction.
Qualities that I try to emulate in my service to Femdom. Thank you so much for reading, Mrs!
aww shucks, you made me blush man. I’ll join the love fest – love ya too bro!
Come get some of this hug, homie.
I have just found this site myself. I totally understand much of what you went through. Im going through it now. This is a great site. Thank you for sharing.