Late Bloomer ‘virgin’

Dear FemdomU Forum,

My name is Roy. I am 62, divorced, with a salt-and-pepper beard that’s more salt these days, arthritic fingers that ache when it rains, and until recently, a life as predictable as my 7PM dinners of microwaved Lean Cuisine. That changed because of Hannah, my neighbor down the hall in 4C.

We started as friendly strangers. Quick nods in the fluorescent-lit elevator. Holding heavy fire doors with strained smiles. Eventually, a shared bottle of merlot one humid Tuesday after our laundry cycles finished simultaneously. She was thirty-something, with electric blue tips in her dark hair, sharp-witted, and carried herself with a confidence that made me feel like both a fossil and a teenager. When she told me what she did for a living… webcam Dominatrix, complete with a leather portfolio on her phone… my mouth went dry. Not from disgust or judgment, but from the vertigo of suddenly standing at the edge of a world I’d only glimpsed in incognito browser tabs I’d hastily closed.

That fear turned into curiosity faster than I care to admit.

She didn’t push. She smiled, poured another drink, and asked questions about my life, my marriage, what I had missed, what I had wondered about but never dared name. When she jokingly offered to “break me in,” something inside me snapped loose. I heard myself say yes before my brain caught up.

Things moved quickly after that. Calm. Confident. Guided.

She took control with an ease that made me feel safe instead of foolish. Clothes disappeared. Shame melted. I let myself be led, positioned, instructed. Her hands were firm on my hips, guiding me to bend over the bed. The cool air against my exposed skin made me shiver with anticipation and vulnerability. I heard the snap of a latex glove, the click of a bottle cap. Then came the slow, careful pressure of her lubricated fingers, exploring territory I’d kept off-limits for six decades. My breath caught. She murmured encouragement, her voice low and steady. When she finally pressed the tip of her strapon against me, I tensed involuntarily. “Breathe,” she commanded, and I obeyed. The initial resistance gave way to a burning stretch that balanced perfectly between pleasure and pain. Inch by inch, she claimed me, pausing when I gasped, advancing when I relaxed. The fullness was unlike anything I’d experienced… intrusive yet intimate, foreign yet somehow right. When she began to move, the sensation transformed into waves that radiated through my entire body. I found myself pushing back against her, wanting more of this revelation.

It was intense, overwhelming, and deeply real. I did not feel old in that moment. I felt present, alive in every nerve ending, finally understanding what my body had been quietly requesting all these years.

What shocked me later was when she showed me the recording. She had been recording the whole thing. I had known she worked on camera, but I had not realized that night would be captured. There I was on the screen, unfiltered, unguarded, discovering something about myself at an age most men are retreating from desire instead of running toward it.

She offered to delete the footage, but I said what the hell – if she can make some money over my deflowering – who the hell was I to stand in her way?

Somewhere on the internet, there is footage of a man my age letting go of decades of restraint in one evening. I expected embarrassment. What I felt instead was pride. Not because of what I did, but because I finally let myself do it.

I am still Roy. I still read the paper and complain about my knees. But now I also know that curiosity does not expire, and neither does the need to be seen, even when that seeing happens through a camera lens I never expected to face.

Sincerely,
Roy

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