long night
by duckie | Mar 23, 2025 |
last night was rough. i don’t like being here alone.
i had every light on—the hall lights, the bedroom lights, even the outside flood lights. it didn’t help much. this place is just too big to be alone in.
every creak echoes. every shadow feels suspicious. every open space reminds me how empty it is now.
i kept checking doors that were already locked. walked the halls like a ghost. couldn’t sleep for more than a few minutes at a time.
i’ve always felt safe here with madam. or with cook. or with someone. now? i feel like i don’t belong in this space unless i’m serving someone in it.
this house was never meant for one.
Dude, we’re both living the sad bachelor-sub life right now. At least you still have your collar!
Have I missed something here duckie? Is this a permanent thing for you or just temporary? You seem to be suffering terribly.
thanks just temporary. i know i’m being needy. i will be meeting up with Madam sometime next month after i finish closing out things here. just really don’t like being alone.