I’m sorry. I’ve been absent from the Magazine again. After making real progress, I slipped badly and have been derelict in my duties. I know I’ve let people down.
Madam Nora gave me an ultimatum, and I owe her, along with the other Dommes, an explanation. I’ve tried to put it into words, but everything I write feels flimsy. It doesn’t seem to capture the weight of what I’ve failed to do.
The truth is, I’m depressed. I’m a mess. I can’t function. There’s a lot of personal stuff I need to work through, and while that doesn’t excuse anything, it is real and I need some time to deal with it.
Madam has agreed to give me the next two weeks as personal time. I’m supposed to return on the 18th, ready to fulfill my contract. If I’m not, then I’m not supposed to return.
Hopefully this isn’t my last post here. Hopefully I come back stronger, more focused, and truly worthy of being part of this. But just in case it is, well… bye.
It’s a big step to realise that things are too much, a bigger thing to ask for time or help.
Hopefully everything gets better and you are getting the time and help you need to bounce back and we’ll see you back posting again soon.
Take care of yourself Levi
I hope you can sort things out levi. I hope you can and will try to get help if you need it. As eleven said take if yourself.
brother you know i’m here for you, and so are the others. call me back.