every year, giving Madam her gifts is one of my favorite responsibilities. it is not about price or size. it is about knowing her, paying attention, and choosing things that feel like they came from me and only me. there is always a piece of jewelry. that part is...

I’m pleased to report that the trade worked. Hannah and I finalized everything, and she has agreed to let me have Charlie for three nights. He’ll be here Saturday, Sunday, and Monday, and I am already very much looking forward to it. A special holiday indeed!...

I fucked up. I had a brutal trip. Idiots everywhere. A miserable Uber. Delays. Noise. By the time I finally got to the hotel, I was already pissed off. My sub had checked in, paid for the room, everything was ready. All he had to do was be ready for me. And then I...

Interview nine feels different. I think I may have found what I am looking for. He recently graduated from college and even began coursework in special education. Service, however, is where his heart truly is. He has served twice before. Once for a college...

Madam instructed me to share my newest wheel of punishment. yes, a wheel. it lives on the wall just outside my room, so i have to walk past it and think about my life choices on a regular basis. for certain screwups, Madam doesn’t lecture. she doesn’t argue. she...

It’s a strange thing to wrap your head around, being used by someone else while your wife watches. I don’t mean strange in a bad way, just strange in the way that makes you stop afterward and think, “Wow, my life really went in this direction.” It’s happened more...

I have already talked about Scrappydo, the poor, pathetic pup that thing2 brought sniffing around my house. He is useful, polite, and very easy on the eyes. The kind of boy that makes me want to break him in and make him mine, if only training someone new did not...